don't be rustled by insults ("the first insult i get from someone generally leads to a confrontation"), I thought you had a "royal disregard for what people think of you anywhere" ?

I think you're way too cynical about people man, you say that humans as a collective suck, but then only provide examples of individual people doing bad things. You admit that you're "an asshole" and "detest mostly everyone", so I think that your preconception of people in general makes it hard for you to appreciate most people you meet.

I had a phase in freshman year of highschool when I detested everything and everyone around me, looking for flaws everywhere and finding them, complaining about my situation, but I was really more selfish than anyone else, I couldn't appreciate the people who loved me and I didnt do anything at school, causing stress to my mother whom I wouldn't talk to about the emotions that I was having. And you know what happened then ? My friends started to reject me because I was constantly an asshole. I had the exact same method of justification that you described, that I was just being completely honest with everyone and that I wasnt holding any of my feelings back. I can't tell you how much I regret that period of my life and how much I have also learned from it.

You're gonna have to learn to not be so cynical and realize that this is the world that we live in, there are as many incredibly compassionate and amazing people out there as there are selfish opportunist bastards, that every day fortunate events happen to evil men and unfortunate events happen to good men, that there are large scale problems on our planet that EVERYONE wants to solve but can't, that people whom are power hungry and abusive with power are the most likely to attempt obtaining it at any means, that everyone has an ego and is inherently self-absorbed and that you don't know anything about the world and neither do I.

read Candide by Voltaire