Oct 26 2012, 11:50 PM
Well, i've been here long enough to at least reveal a few things about myself that most people here don't know.
Im 18, live in San Francisco........(wait you all know these)....
I actually am the way i am on the internet, in real life, i don't necessarily hate everyone but the first insult i get from someone generally leads to a confrontation, i don't care from who, i take things seriously and hate sarcasm and jokes in general. I don't kowtow or ingratiate myself to anyone, and openly bluntly criticize people including people who are my friends, especially because people who really are my friends like hearing the truth versus someone trying to be nice about criticizing you. I am well prepared to live my life as an island(the old saying No man is an island) and have utter contempt for most of humankind and self criticize myself and point out my own faults when someone criticizes me as long as they are being civil about it.
Religiously i have no "faith" but im no atheist , God's there, somewhere, but what makes you think he wants to talk to you LOL! is how i see it.
If you've heard me speak over the mic in the popular maps 2 you'd know im white.Normally face to face whenever i tell someone my father is Chinese it either shocks them, or they believe he's some kind of nerdy tech company worker. I define myself as American, and have heard ignorant white and Chinese people in the past ask either myself or my dad the question "Is he adopted?".
I speak read and write Chinese and English very well, at least according to qualified people like my Chinese Language teachers, the Language dept Chairperson at City College SF; and my English teachers in high schools, who all had masters degrees in the language.
First off, yall can believe it, or not believe it, its up to you, react whatever way you will.
Two, this is my overarching thought of Humans and of myself.
I think Humans as an overall collective, suck, individual people can be nice or mean, but when humans are defined as a collective, they all including myself SUCK! We like to blame the next guy for our problems, never own up to when we cheat our wives or girlfriends out of things, or for that matter use our friends to suit are own means. We like to grovel and ingratiate ourselves to a higher authority because we are scared of " Losing a job", we are scared of retribution by people who scarcely ever execute it, to quote The Prince by Machievelli " Men take revenge for slight injuries, for large ones, they cannot". Yet when someone comes to work with an AK and shoots up the place or someone who gets bullied brings guns and kills 30 innocent people, we're shocked. Its like gee, why did you pick on the guy, why couldn't you just be nice to him. Theres more that i could fill a 150 page notebook with(well i already did kinda.)
Yes im an asshole, yes i detest mostly everyone least i have the balls to admit it, and than besides which be honest with myself and know, thats exactly who I am. Iv'e made teachers quiver at losing their jobs, iv'e bad mouthed "educated" degree wielding ppl because they don't know the meaning of etiquette or how to greet someone nicely, rather than sneering at them and insulting them the first thing. I don't respond unless addressed, and keep to myself about detesting some ppl who though i would openly like to insult because i know they arent worth that grace.
I believe the word hypocrite can only be applied to someone who is ignorant of their own criticisms as also defining themselves, i think Humans as a collective (not individuals mind you) suck therefore, i suck too cuz no matter how its defined i'm a human too.
I dont believe in Facebook, and think Mark Doucheberg inadvertently created the biggest database to find anyone you want in the entire world, that anyone can access. I refuse to be part of any "social network" instead relegating myself to anonymous forums like this around things i enjoy, CSS, The Three Kingdoms, M2TW.
I like to believe people over the internet are not the same as if you met them in real life, i like to believe that every member here is in reality a nice pleasant person who i could sit down and enjoy a cup of coffee and a pastry with.
I once thought of inviting all my friends from CS over to SF for dinner at my house, but i dont have the plane fare to make it happen!
I have a royal disregard for what people think of me anywhere, and there are only select few who i won't mention whose life criticisms and criticisms in general that i respect. Rather than wanting to that new iphone like the next guy, i want to serve my country for 30 years as a Military Officer, of which i have serious doubts of ever getting to despite my applications to that career, which i won't detail further.
To reiterate, think what you will, i don't care too much, im honest with myself, and being honest here as well, you dont like it thats your problem.
Yes, im an asshole, yes i troll and have trolled people, yes i whine complain and bitch about things, and criticize people heavily,but im certainly no beggar and wont go asking for anyone's forgiveness either, both here and out there in the real world. I believe in putting the past aside and looking forward, using History as a reference and a example of what not to do again, but not as something to repeat or admire and try to emulate.
Im 18, live in San Francisco........(wait you all know these)....
I actually am the way i am on the internet, in real life, i don't necessarily hate everyone but the first insult i get from someone generally leads to a confrontation, i don't care from who, i take things seriously and hate sarcasm and jokes in general. I don't kowtow or ingratiate myself to anyone, and openly bluntly criticize people including people who are my friends, especially because people who really are my friends like hearing the truth versus someone trying to be nice about criticizing you. I am well prepared to live my life as an island(the old saying No man is an island) and have utter contempt for most of humankind and self criticize myself and point out my own faults when someone criticizes me as long as they are being civil about it.
Religiously i have no "faith" but im no atheist , God's there, somewhere, but what makes you think he wants to talk to you LOL! is how i see it.
If you've heard me speak over the mic in the popular maps 2 you'd know im white.Normally face to face whenever i tell someone my father is Chinese it either shocks them, or they believe he's some kind of nerdy tech company worker. I define myself as American, and have heard ignorant white and Chinese people in the past ask either myself or my dad the question "Is he adopted?".
I speak read and write Chinese and English very well, at least according to qualified people like my Chinese Language teachers, the Language dept Chairperson at City College SF; and my English teachers in high schools, who all had masters degrees in the language.
First off, yall can believe it, or not believe it, its up to you, react whatever way you will.
Two, this is my overarching thought of Humans and of myself.
I think Humans as an overall collective, suck, individual people can be nice or mean, but when humans are defined as a collective, they all including myself SUCK! We like to blame the next guy for our problems, never own up to when we cheat our wives or girlfriends out of things, or for that matter use our friends to suit are own means. We like to grovel and ingratiate ourselves to a higher authority because we are scared of " Losing a job", we are scared of retribution by people who scarcely ever execute it, to quote The Prince by Machievelli " Men take revenge for slight injuries, for large ones, they cannot". Yet when someone comes to work with an AK and shoots up the place or someone who gets bullied brings guns and kills 30 innocent people, we're shocked. Its like gee, why did you pick on the guy, why couldn't you just be nice to him. Theres more that i could fill a 150 page notebook with(well i already did kinda.)
Yes im an asshole, yes i detest mostly everyone least i have the balls to admit it, and than besides which be honest with myself and know, thats exactly who I am. Iv'e made teachers quiver at losing their jobs, iv'e bad mouthed "educated" degree wielding ppl because they don't know the meaning of etiquette or how to greet someone nicely, rather than sneering at them and insulting them the first thing. I don't respond unless addressed, and keep to myself about detesting some ppl who though i would openly like to insult because i know they arent worth that grace.
I believe the word hypocrite can only be applied to someone who is ignorant of their own criticisms as also defining themselves, i think Humans as a collective (not individuals mind you) suck therefore, i suck too cuz no matter how its defined i'm a human too.
I dont believe in Facebook, and think Mark Doucheberg inadvertently created the biggest database to find anyone you want in the entire world, that anyone can access. I refuse to be part of any "social network" instead relegating myself to anonymous forums like this around things i enjoy, CSS, The Three Kingdoms, M2TW.
I like to believe people over the internet are not the same as if you met them in real life, i like to believe that every member here is in reality a nice pleasant person who i could sit down and enjoy a cup of coffee and a pastry with.
I once thought of inviting all my friends from CS over to SF for dinner at my house, but i dont have the plane fare to make it happen!
I have a royal disregard for what people think of me anywhere, and there are only select few who i won't mention whose life criticisms and criticisms in general that i respect. Rather than wanting to that new iphone like the next guy, i want to serve my country for 30 years as a Military Officer, of which i have serious doubts of ever getting to despite my applications to that career, which i won't detail further.
To reiterate, think what you will, i don't care too much, im honest with myself, and being honest here as well, you dont like it thats your problem.
Yes, im an asshole, yes i troll and have trolled people, yes i whine complain and bitch about things, and criticize people heavily,but im certainly no beggar and wont go asking for anyone's forgiveness either, both here and out there in the real world. I believe in putting the past aside and looking forward, using History as a reference and a example of what not to do again, but not as something to repeat or admire and try to emulate.
"Ignorance is Bliss"- Sima Yi from DW6